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Since life has become so monotonous for me again, I got crazy with borrowing other people’s life drama.

I’ve Learned

With the sudden change in management, the girls in the office, with one guy who insisted he tags along, decided to go out together and watch a movie. That was a first for us. I’ve learned that an officemate and I both liked barbecue flavor for our popcorn. She is as crazy with Blueberry Cheesecake like me and another officemate. This officemate also happen to not know how to slide out from the backseat of a car.

I get really apprehensive about letting people into my life that I miss out on knowing them a lot better. It’s either I let them know me and take advantage of me or keep them at an arm’s length away and not get too involved with their personal life so I won’t be obliged to have them take advantage of me. I’ve been told that I trust people too darn much up to a point that I hardly say no. So I’ve learned to stay away. But staying away made me realize that other people do deserve to be treated like a true friend that they can also be to me. Sometimes when I meet a person for the first time, I get really friendly with them or that I get too cautious being around them The thing is, I haven’t really decided if I can trust this person or not.

Moving On

An officemate ended her relationship and man what a mess. Seeing her come in to the office really sad reminded me of what was. She got really sad and pissed, I guess, that the guy was already going out and meeting people. Do some people really moved on so fast? Or is it their way of seeing, “Hey look, we are no longer together and it doesn’t really affect me at all.”? Someone said,” Moving on is not a race.”

During our recent weekend outing, the Boss asked,” does it take for new person to come along to get over a past relationship?” The girls answered,” It depends.” I think that some girls are insecure that they have to be in a relationship to get over someone. I think that some girls take too long to move on because lets face it these girls get into a relationship that they want to keep forever. Okay, count me in. Boss said something like, boys equal “physical”. Then I think girls equals “emotional”.

The topic got me thinking. It took me more than a year to get over someone. More than a year, damn it! I just deleted his number in my phone a week before the outing. What a coincidence. I do think that we should deal with the break up issues before getting involved with another person. Yes, I still think about the person. And I still see him but not like we used to. I don’t feel the chemistry we used to have before. And to be really frank about it, I tried hard not to yawn about something we were talking about. But still, he is able to make me laugh. So yeah, I’ll give him that. Here’s the thing, when you think about the past relationship, does that mean you are not over that relationship yet?

Crazy Break Up

…can’t even talk about it…so crazy and so darn funny! Especially when he confronted his girlfriend and he said this really heart wrenching question like it was taken out of a movie and the girl can only respond with a,” hmpf..” Hahaha!

He said he likes his girl to just sit and just let him do all the work. He likes to please his girl. He did say to his girlfriend at one time that she is the one he wanted to marry.

My two cents worth?

So the guy is a pleaser when it comes to his relationship. There is nothing wrong with that. But, was he making all the decisions for the girl thinking that this was the best for the girl? Also, if he did think he scared the girl away when he talked about marriage, how old was the girl anyway? Is she the type of girl who wants to do and achieve a lot of things before getting married? It was just a thought. I don’t think he was asking her to marry him right then and there. He was just talking about the future of their relationship. Couldn’t the girl talk to him about what she feels about marriage or getting married to him? Sorry, from here on, I can only speculate.

Warning! Adult content right after this line. Read at your own risk.

Sexual Fantasies

There was talk about how guys can’t talk about their sexual fantasies with their girlfriend or wife. They keep saying how they respect their girl or wife to be talking about fantasies. He keeps saying it’s because of fear of being rejected or be thought of someone who is a pervert. Or something like it.

You know if you are intimate with your girl, and I am surprised that even with their wife, I think talking about sex and fantasies should be no problem. It only takes an open-mind and a whole lot of loving.

Then…….

Rimming!!! Wahahahahahaahhaha… This one beats it. I read women magazine that has adult content to it. But never, not once, have they written about this. Thanks to the boys for being so descriptive. Wahahahhahahahaha....This is killing me! Wahahahahaha..

I was going around the web and then Facebook. I bumped into a old housemate's blog site in friendster that I didn't know she manages and writes. I was reading through her posts and I noticed how "no holds barred" she is and putting all her thoughts into it without minding how it'll look from someone else's point of view. Then I thought, how I come I don't have her courge?

There were years when I started a blog site that I don't want anyone to see or read until now. Well, technically, the blog site I manage is practically new, a year old, and this On Sugar thing just happened recently. There were times when I have no one else to think about but myself and how I look and think about things randomly at my own perspective and risk. Without judgment. Hear hear.

A lot of things have been going on and that I think about. I guess, for an excuse :D, we still have to mind our responsibility and accountability of what we put out on the world wide web about ourselves and what we think without judgment and prejudices.

Now, blogging is more like what interests me at the moment or for earning some "dolyares" online. Gone are the posts about what really matters and what really is inside this heart of mine.

So from here on forward, I pray for courage.

The thing about that cool girl is that she still gets her feelings hurt. She still has reactions to how she's being treated. She still hopes he'll call, wonders when she'll see him again, and if he's excited about being with her.

Liz Tuccillo "He's Just Not That Into You"

Even if you can fall head over heels in love - like all Idealists - all in all you are still the reserved personality type. With you it takes a relatively long time until your counterpart has figured out that you have developed a romantic interest in him/her. You only show your feelings when you are very sure of yourself and the prospects for the relationship. In matters of love the word “flighty” is not a part of your dictionary. You incredulously notice affairs of others and can’t imagine how anyone can play that furiously with their own and the feelings of others. You are a very consistent and faithful person and you are looking for a partner like that - sometimes it takes a very long time.

When you are too reserved and hesitate too long before you really trust someone to open up to him/her, you make it very difficult for potential prospects. There is no question that your personality is one of the most complex and complicated types around. So it is no wonder that less complicated types sometimes become demoralized and give up before your flirtation has gained momentum.

Once you have committed yourself to a partner, it is for life. There is no going back. Since a relationship is that important to you, one of your most important goals in life is to keep the given promise. Your obligation is sacred and you expect your partner to feel the same way. Because it was difficult for you to trust, you have a real problem forgiving a betrayal of confidence like an affair as well as other behaviors that you see as treachery. All your aspirations are focused to form emotional oneness with your partner and to merge with him/her as much as is humanly possible. If your partner feels as you do and opens him/herself up to you, it can form the basis for a close and exclusive relationship. You run the risk of disappointment and hurt though, if you give your love to someone who wants no part of this intimacy. For you, it is either all or nothing.